revelation-the end
2-0-0-6 has just a little more than 24 hours left to 'live'!thinking back,it has been a fast year..the first day at orientation in my school and the next think i know here i am publishing this entry.it just happens in and instant and looking forward into the year of 07,many challenges awaits me-be it countless tests and examinations coupled with training sessions and school nationals to conquer,i sure gives me the chill up my spine.sometimes you think working in a hotel serving tourists would be a much happier job,but i think its just as stressful if not more.every job,including the job of being a student,has the same amount of challenges,workloads and stress to juggle with..they say that being a student is the easiest job around!i beg not to differ.think it through--every thing has been laid out for us!all we need to do is to do it well and POOFF! its all done and over!take tests and examinations as a way to instill the word D-I-S-C-I-P-L-I-N-E into your stubborn mind and soul.this word might just be the one to let you surge forward to et that special thing or that special someone!

thinking about the first day of school has let me into this channel of thought of figuring out the reason why or how come people from YISS can actually come to my school.i'm not trying to be arrogant or whatsoever but i'm just surprised!i mean like no one knows about my school except if you're playng any sport or just from a prestigous sceondary school unlike YISS(no offense).sigh!but seriously,i vowed to myself that i really must catch a glimpse of those TWO students who have made it big for our alma mater.the thought of it just amazes me.but one must seriously note that they have made it here through sheer hard work and grit,unlike someone who got into my school through DSA.its kinda intimidating thinking of it..

oh my gosh!i suddenly have this fear that next year,which comes in just a few hours will be one hell of a year!ADVANCED LEVEL EXAMINATION!its simpler just reading the name of the examination!i'm serious!its kinda difficult trying to survive my school examinations and the countless test;what more the freaking A levels?oh my gosh!this is one ultimate barrier or obstacle that i have to overcome with the help of my friends reaching far and wide and high and low.luck is everything i need.I'M DESPERATE for every inch of luck there is!

to God be the glory,the best is yet to be

hello!! MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

so long no see!!! haha

I am still in Hong kong right now. I Simply love hong kong and had fun but I kinda of hated my family. so BIAS.. why must i always be the one buying things for people and spending the less money for myself while someone who is a guy had the chance to spend more and buy more things for himself and do not care about those gifts. Wateva lar in short i hated GUYS.

SUX!!!

INTERNET IS FREE DOWN HERE!!!! DISNEY IS BORING!!!!

tata.

once again

HOHOHOHO!!!! MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!

trigger: an events that precipitates other events..
after enjoying a long holiday,it has come to my realisation that there are tonnes of holiday homework YET to be done!should i be frighting?sigh!i'm confused,especially with all the things happening around me..oh dear,everything seems to be as important as completing my holiday homework..this is so bad!i'm kinda stressed and all.
anw,i don have the inspiration to do what i am supposed to do now...what the f**k is wrong with me?AHH!!

I really cant believe how stupid i can get. I actually forgot to add my control sample to run the gel electroporation test! SHIT! If you ask me, its as bad as having 10 new pens and out of all the 10 pens, you brought a pen which ran out of ink to a final year biology or history test where you have to write pages and pages of long essays!

Come to think of it, it not as bad as forgetting to bring your pen. Ultimately, you could still raise your hand and borrow one. Infect, it should be, you trained like crazy for months before a race and while you are at the lead and coming to the end while the rest are like 200m away, you tripped and fall. If you tripped because you lost balance suddenly or had a leg crap or even tripped over a rock, while, you can be forgiven. BUT if you tripped because you took a bigger step suddenly, which you should not have because you are already leading, and fall while the rest past you, then you should start cursing and swearing yourself.

That how serious the mistake a made was. What makes me feel more stupid was that i was repeatedly taught not to let my guard down like so many times. First was when i was an OGL where Mr Leow taught us that we should always be alert and look out for our campers even if i was after JJ night. Second time was when Lana told me to get all my protocols clear before doing anything for it would be really stupid to make a mistake if you do your experiment wrongly. Third was when Shyan nagged at me telling me that i should always look and refer to my notebook before doing anything.

Seriously, i am really pissed with myself. Making it worst, i made the same mistake once before in another experiment. Learning it so many times and repeating it is definitely a no no. I really should go to the nearest wall and start banging my head against it now.

I then taught of going home and just sleep so that tomorrow would come and i could start everything a new. Guess what? While walking down this road, it started to rain HEAVILY and i had no umbrellas with me. When i was no where near from home. I ran to the wet market and walked to the furthest shelter place i could. I then found myself standing outside this car repair shop. When i stopped to think, the light outside the shop went off. FUCK.

posted by ncz

anger is one letter short of danger.
i totally agree.amidst all the fun and laughter we had during our annual december class chalet,we still faced some disappointments.this disappointments eventually relates into anger moments!and when one gets angry diaster would befall on anger-ee.
all those guilty asses out there better hear this!and i quote:"say come then don come".isnt it the same as not fulfilling one's promise?it makes matter worse when ppl who came HAVE to pay more to cover the cost of the chalet?is this the cost of having fun and experiencing pure joy when every one in the chalet have already took time of their hectic schedule to come for the chalet?
this also includes those forgetting to pay for their part of the chalet!not remembering is not a good reason to cover your forgetfulness isn't it?does your present teacher accept ypur reason that you have forgot to do your homework or does your team mates accept the reason that you have forgot to do your part of your project?
all this seriously just goes to show how much responsibility each individual have and how much you're worth eventually.do some serious reflections and just realise how much quality you have inside than outside.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CHUENG CHUN!!!!!!!!!

Alright. Just nowi found a chinchila. Ao poor thing!!! IT has a very rough fur, i think that it has been out loitering on the street for days. sob sob sob. Now We have temporary adopted it. This chinchila cost 1.6K leh.. how can they be so careless. Poor thing. Haha i must take


SIAN I STILL DO NOT kNOW WHAT TO BUY FOR CHALET.


HAHA Time to publicize again


DATE: 15 - 17 DEC

VENUE: EAST COAST PARK BLOCK D ROOM 7

BBQ is on 16DEC

BBQ --> $10 bucks
1 Night --> $16
2 Nights --> $24


ps: bring watevea games you have to the chalet alright???

'pine' is a pun!
hahah!i'm feeling lost and am pining for that someone.i don know what is it but i just feel tat i need to see that someone so that this pine will just flow away.without this dose of sight,its as though an unquenchable fire,burning me from within.this fire has killed all enthusiasm to kickstart each and every day..how boring life can get?
boredom has just consumed my happiness,robbed me from enjoying the splendor life has to offer.wat could be the root cause of this u ask..the answer's beyond my perception.

sigh!pine,though just a tree uproots all lustre life has to offer.

bob

integrity means honesty and honesty just goes to show ur character.
but is this all that a leader needs so that u have so called willing to listen followers?
sigh i guess.
who tries not to cheat during trng?who does not try to shorten our time suffering in the pool under the hot scorching sun with us all being kinda half died?who doesnt i ask?ppl may just say u shldnt try to slack cause it'll affect ur performance and such like but these ppl just think that we have an infinite pool of energy we can tap on or these people are just fit enough to continue doing?this is just too disgusting for me to accept.i mean ARGGH!why cant the stupid teacher accpet this fatal fact?why why?
anw,i multi tasking-watching swimming from the asian games and trying to publish this post. but its kinda cool swimming or lets just say competing with world class athelets.they're just kinda hot too and they're very friendly!whoa whoa!they all have nice competition suits coupled with a nearly flawless bod and nearly prefecto strokes!like u need to redefine hot man!oh ncz,u shld watch them doing their fly.its kinda like the standard we follow.omg,i just realised how nice their kicks are.so wavy and flexible!AHH!!this is so intimidating!!

Im frustrated of the module selection.

Wth. Should i take the easy way out follow what the school recommend or think more.


Because i had 4 days school next year. The one day is for profession profiling which i do not even know what the hell is that thing plus creative enagement which i hate it thousand over time. going talks doesnt help in that. Im pissed with it.

Now i do not know anything. there are so many questions about it such as
If i choose elective, should i choose something that is not related to my diploma or related to it. If it is non diploma which is useful and what to choose?
If I had elective will i able to cope with it?
Will my grades be affected?
How is the time like for professional profiling?
What should I do for professional profiling?
Should i try out 1 semester first den decide in 2nd semester?

These questions are so important that if any choosing of wrong selection, I am responsible for it. Because it narrows down what I am going to be in the future which I do not even know. There are so many people better and talented. What am i talented or rather what am I good at? what is the things that I like to do? what is my life goal? I cant even answered it. How am i going to be responsible for my life? If any of wrong direction, money and years of studying will be wasted.

After thinking abt module selection, you will think of future which is endless questions.

haiz....RP is giving me a hard time.

Getting a good grade is not easy through studying; more than it. It doesnt matter whether u understand or rather have a good presentation, a moment of playing games, it will pull your grades down.wtf lar. I had just kana it. First time leh. I serious hated tt mr. potato. I must try to read his mind to understand what he wants in each and individual, den I can get A.

Whahahahaha.


tenten pathetic life.

thoughts are direct products of thinking.
thoughts are good but as they say: too many cooks spoil the broth.so sometimes thinking too much just makes things worse.however,here comes the tricky part:how when to think deeper and when not to?how,when thinking deeper would really change our life?too many thoughts just makes things more complicated.
so if u're thinking of getting together with tat girl.u shld really just try.rejections wld be tough to accept but i think it just makes u stronger,stronger in a way tat it'll make u accept reality more directly and it'll build this barrier which will protect u from emotional and physiological setbacks when some irrational teacher lashes u badly.
sometimes things are already complicated enough and more thoughts wld just make it WORSE.sigh sigh sigh.solution:take this small step back to view the bigger picture than the small jigsaw piece.only then fatalities would be lesser:a food for thought.

4E1 YISS 2005 we are all 18 now!

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